It felt like a second since I let my eyes close. When I opened them up again, I found myself seated in his car with his scent.
"Benji..." I heard my head call.
Before I knew it, my tears were flowing again. I cursed and swear at my uselessness, at my weak and insecure being. I hated myself for that.
Dexter's hands cupped my face like how he always used to, and brushed the tears from my face. I looked at him. The tears in my eyes sharpened the image I had of him, it was so clear to me that he was also tearing. Without knowing, I cupped his face with my tiny hands and flicked his tears away too.
"I'm sorry, Lynn. I should've stayed by you all along when I kind of sensed what was going on... I'm so sorry, Lynn. I'm so sorry" His words trialed away as he sobbed.
I was puzzled by what he said, but it did not matter... as long as I felt safe with him, as long as this feeling goes uninterrupted.
"Rachel told me weird things. Your birthday party... I was begged by her to go. She knelt down and hugged my legs and cried. She begged me to go. She said you were her best friend and you wanted me to be there because you missed me so much... I..." I hushed him with a punch against his left arm.
"Stop saying all these, please. Let me just forget all of these episodes of my life, can we?" I said as I braced myself again. Albeit uninvited, I laid my head against his arms. That moment, all I could feel was warmth of happiness. I knew I had a brand new strength to face the world again.
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