Song: Up Your Fame

I can use words that I know
To name my weaknesses
Though the words are small and few

I can use words that I know
To paint the perfection
That You have shown to me

But words can never be enough
Words are just words

How can I stop
Singing Your praise
How can I put to a halt
And snatch Your fame

How can I stop
Bringing You praise
How can I put a halt
In upping Your fame

Song: More than you already did

How can I make you miss me
More than I do miss you
When I'm daydreaming
About me and you

How can I make you love me
More than I do love you
When you start daydreaming
About me and you

How can I make you think of me
More than I do think of you
When I feel blessed by your love
I do feel blessed by your love

I'd do anything, anything
Just for you to look at me
More than you
Already did

I'd do anything, everything
Just for you to think of me
More than you
Already did

Poem: 我喜欢

我喜欢
逛街的时候为你挑衣服

我喜欢
睡觉之前和你通电话

我喜欢
起身时候给你 Morning call

我喜欢
工作的时候我们一起加油

我喜欢
无聊的时候和你一起数星星

我喜欢
在你生气的时候对你撒撒娇

我喜欢
我哭泣的时候你擦干我的泪

我喜欢
在你生病的时候为你熬粥

我喜欢
在看电影时赖在你肩膀

我喜欢
就这样一直看着你

我喜欢我喜欢我喜欢
因为任何关于你的东西
我都很喜欢

Song: It's not a dream

Verse 1:
Boy oh boy
I do hope you noticed me
When I walked past you today
So many times

Verse 2:
From the start
This feeling came from my heart
It's making me jumpin' around
I wanna shout out loud

Chorus:
Tell me it's not a dream
It's not a fantasy
It's the truth that you
Really love me

That you love me
You love me
It's the truth
I love you

Bridge:
I heard my my heart pumpin'
It's never stopped thumpin'
I think I saw you wavin'
Wavin' at me

Poem: 遥远

我怎么了？
怎么会突然之间想到你了呢？
刚刚看见你了
我好像脸红了

多希望你没看见
没看见我偷偷看着你
看着你那可爱的脸
你那温柔的眼

可是我跟你就像是
天与地的距离
一起白头到老
就是我们的问题

我想你也不会把我放在眼里吧
只是我把一切想得太复杂
这样也好
至少我还能再遥远的地方偷偷看你

其是只要这样就好...

Random: 不要忽略她了

一个女生幸福的时候是当她的爱人送给她一份礼物。
不是因为她爱慕虚荣，而是因为高兴自己出现过他的脑海。

一个女生幸福的时候是当她的爱人称赞她，说她的好。
不是因为她在意自己的为人，而是因为高兴自己是被他欣赏着的。

一个女生幸福的时候是当她的爱人在她的生理期的时候帮她做家务，并准备晚餐给她吃。
不是因为她懒惰，而是因为高兴自己被受到他的呵护于关心。

可是有时候他往往都会忘记对她好。工作、朋友、甚至还有电脑游戏常常都会使他分心，使他忘了她的存在。

今晚就带她去吃她爱吃的日本料理，陪她看她一直吵着要看的那部电影吧！可以的话，明天早上也送她去上班，接她下班，她一定会很高兴的...

Poem: 幸福

听到了吗？
闭上双眼，你听到了吗？
在繁忙的城市里，听到我们的脚步声了吗？
听到我们幸福的笑声了吗？

看见了吗？
睁开双眼，你看见了吗？
在苦闷的日子里，看见我们的笑脸了吗？
看见大家罕见的快乐了吗？

其实幸福很简单
就是握着他的手
还有赖在他肩上
闭上双眼，享受着拥有他的温暖

幸福真的很简单
只要你跟随着他
陪他一起痛哭，一起呐喊
就必定会一起微笑，还有拥抱

这，就是幸福的声音
也是幸福的剪影...

Response - loves-xinqing

It has been five years since we met... Throughout these years I had been thinking: Girl, did you love me?

I remember those days when I used to irritate you, when we talked over the phone till you fell asleep, even those days when we used to argue over little things like where to go for supper when you were bored at night. I had to keep myself busy to stop thinking of you, Girl.

I was waiting for the legal moment to finally hold your hand.

I could blame no one but myself for being sick. I never wanted to let you know my condition, I never wanted you to burden you with the nagging pain over my body. Least of all, to flood your eyes with tears when I breathe my last. Truth is, Girl, I love you.

It took me so hard to make the decision to travel alone, to watch the skies from different parts of the world before I finally go. God knows how much I wanted you to be there with me... I wanted you to be there with me...

I saw you again yesterday in the wedding. I held back my tears as I walked past you. Oh Girl, you smelled exactly the same as you did. You looked as beautiful as you were. Oh, Girl, if only I could... make you mine. Yet your tears are costly for me, they are too precious to flood, too precious to fall...

Girl, I love you.

Response to: Loves-xinqing

Roller Coaster - Chapter 19

It felt like a second since I let my eyes close. When I opened them up again, I found myself seated in his car with his scent.

"Benji..." I heard my head call.

Before I knew it, my tears were flowing again. I cursed and swear at my uselessness, at my weak and insecure being. I hated myself for that.

Dexter's hands cupped my face like how he always used to, and brushed the tears from my face. I looked at him. The tears in my eyes sharpened the image I had of him, it was so clear to me that he was also tearing. Without knowing, I cupped his face with my tiny hands and flicked his tears away too.

"I'm sorry, Lynn. I should've stayed by you all along when I kind of sensed what was going on... I'm so sorry, Lynn. I'm so sorry" His words trialed away as he sobbed.

I was puzzled by what he said, but it did not matter... as long as I felt safe with him, as long as this feeling goes uninterrupted.

"Rachel told me weird things. Your birthday party... I was begged by her to go. She knelt down and hugged my legs and cried. She begged me to go. She said you were her best friend and you wanted me to be there because you missed me so much... I..." I hushed him with a punch against his left arm.

"Stop saying all these, please. Let me just forget all of these episodes of my life, can we?" I said as I braced myself again. Albeit uninvited, I laid my head against his arms. That moment, all I could feel was warmth of happiness. I knew I had a brand new strength to face the world again.

Poem: Tiring

My shoulders are aching
My eyes are puffing
My back is crying
My heart is screaming

The spreadsheet is calling
The camp is nearing
In just a week's time,
I won't be sleeping

The proposals are waiting
For me to be dealt with
The camps are nearing
Two whole weeks not sleeping

Am I complaining?
I don't want to be whining
I feel like weeping
And feel like quitting

He died for me ever so willing
For my heart to be strapping
For my soul to be hearty
Not for me to be weary

So I'll walk with Him intimately
Holding His Hands unfailing
Knowing that He is here with me
These tasks I'll be fulfilling

Poem: Abandon, Abundance

Dear God, can I cast all my anxieties upon You?
I feel so heartsick and feel so drooped
Floodgates of torment pouring over me
Just with a whish I was swept into the Seven Seas

God, will You listen to my cries?
Will You perform a magic and sanctify?
May he go above the tight rope not
May he go behind the bars and suffer not

I pray O Lord, Lord I pray
That You will bless him in every way
That You Almighty will see his fear
And use Your gentle Hands to wipe his tears

May we abandon this huge crisis
And solve every problem unfinished
May we bow down in Your Holiness
And reap a life of abundance

Poem: Indoguna

It's so fast.

I've started missing that route
The route to work I always took
When I got down from the bus
And walked there so fast

The two stray dogs that wait upon each other
The leaves on the ground clothed by my Father
The blue building with workers dislodging beer
The building next to it, that company so dear

The people inside whom I'll always love
The guys from the store who laugh when I cough
The girls in the office who prepare my breakfast
The guys doing sales doing silly things and wash away the loneliness

Indoguna oh Indoguna
How I miss you
How I miss the pantry
Where I make my coffee

Indoguna oh Indoguna
I miss the sticker machine
And the SAP system
Which always gives us problems

Time really passed damn fast

Poem: Growing up

Look at her
I know you're already doing it
Look at her
Why are you making me your misfit?

Can we turn the clock around
And the time to rewind?
To the time when we didn't make a sound
And it's still each other that we find?

May God lead us to His Way
May He erase our shattered past
For His good, pleasing and perfect Way
Can mend these broken hearts

May we live a life of holiness
Keeping each other in daily prayers
May we remember each other
For our lives can't be pressed

Song: Tuck me to Sleep

God of my soul
God of my life
Are You, Lord

Lifted my head
Prepared my bed
You know

And I live for You
And I sing for You
Jesus come take me now

Hold me now
Take me in Your arms
Tuck me to sleep tonight
I pray

Lord I pray
You speak to me
In my dream
Come hold me in Your arms

Poem: Drowning

Wider than the sea
Is His love for me
It's hard to comprehend
Why He gives me chance

Deeper than the ocean
Is His holy presence
In His love so charming
I find myself drowning

He hung on the Cross
He let His Spirit fall
So His blood could cleanse
My sins I can't defend

Jesus just tell me
Why do you love me?
I am so undeserving
For Your grace enduring

Poem: Tarry until...

He was standing there
In the midst of them
His smile turned into a snare
I tried hard not to stare

His eyes shone like stars
His voice shook my world
It all seems so near
But all stood afar

I have fallen heads over heels
Like water to an eel
Yet his love I cannot feel
It's like a defend shield

When can he open up to me
A month, or two, or three?
Will it take eternity?
I will still wait for him
No matter how long it will be