I never expected I would fall in Dexter's arms again, and never had I expected that I would cry so hard in front of him. I never did that ever since we ended our relationship months ago.
I felt relieved. To make it worse, I was so surprised I felt understood by him. I was never a fan of a tofu-heart girl. I never wanted to be one. I never wanted to be so soft in front of guys. Especially guys like Dexter. To my horror, it did not feel like a nightmare to me.
"I've never seen you cry this badly. Mind tellin' me what happened?" He actually showed me concern, after months that we did not have contact with each other.
I just cried. To be honest, I sobbed even harder. I felt my eyes turning sore. The thing was, I could not care less. I just wanted to cry in his arms forever. I wanted him to pat me like he used to in the past.
I miss you... I thought. Never had I realize that this was exactly the reason why I cried.
"'S alright, sweetheart. Cry as long as you want. I can be here for you all night long," he said.
I felt bad. Really bad. Words can never be enough to describe the guilt I had in me. However, a part of me wanted to hug him even tighter. This part of me was dominating.
The next thing I knew, we were hugging each other.
Benji, I'm sorry...
What monster had I become? I did not know. All I knew was I wanted to stay like this forever.
Bitch. I called myself that.
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